She accused me of not having goals outside of Marcos. This is false. Case in point;

College. Its never been an if. Never an option in my mind. I hate not being in school right now. I feel stupid and worthless. I miss the classrooms of my below budget community college, I miss the teachers, the smells the noises and lack of nutrition. I will go back because my spirit could not allow me otherwise. Marcos has only magnified this gut feeling, because now I'm succeeding for two.

Music. Now more than ever I'm motivated to go back. I need a job first, and I will work two if it means I can go back to voice lessons and make my dreams come true. There is no option for failure here either. Part of my heart and mind goes missing when music and creativity leave my air space. I breathe better when I'm singing.

Moving Out. Independence has always been a far off dream of mine. I longed for it but could never wrap it around my neck. But now its right around the corner, and as I approach it my feet they quicken when before they turned round about beneath my heart before I could argue otherwise. But now I feel capable. Now I feel brave. And even if I didn't, now there is no option. And not because of Marcos, but because the Lord told me it was time.

I just had to get that out of my head and into your ears.
-A.H.